i'm almost asleep.

But I found another photo of Henry and the tree shadows that I love.  Henry is a very thoughtful kid and even though he laughs easily, he is often concentrating on something.  Lots of people think he's a really serious kid and I think in some ways he is.  I worry that the last few months he was in my uterus all I did was cry and not eat and not sleep and that somehow made him more serious than a little kid should be.  Then again, in a lot of other ways he's just like his mom-mom and is constantly finding things to laugh about.  Like this afternoon when he pushed me off the couch then laughed so hard he almost fell off the couch himself.  I'll never know if the shitty environment I provided for him during the last trimester of my pregnancy affected him negatively but what I do know is that I will always love this kid and I will always try to do what I think is best for him so he is happy and healthy and finds his way in this crazy fucked up world.  Anyway, in this photo he appears to be deep in thought about something.  My guess is he was trying to figure out how to get out of taking a nap.  Smart boy.