february.

Seriously?  It's February already!  I am not sure how that happened.  Time.  It's getting out of control.  There is not enough of it.  I've been sick for almost two weeks.  I need to get those two weeks back because the laundry piled up. The painting project is still there.  That furniture did not paint itself.  The dishes - well, they got washed but I wasn't happy about it.  The library book didn't get read.  Luckily, I remembered at 9 p.m. on the day that it was due that I needed to renew it.  When we first moved back I was so impressed that the library didn't charge overdue fees.  And then a few months later they musta heard about me and started charging fees.  I've only had to pay a few but only because I can renew online.  If it wasn't for that I would have to stop borrowing books because I wouldn't be able to afford it. 

It's been a busy month already, even with the sick.  I interviewed for a new job and was offered and accepted the job.  I started a new part-time job. 

Crazy, crazy times, especially because our live-in help (haha just kidding mom and dad!) took off for warmer weather and won't be back until March or something. 

Henry came home last night from his dad's and he was sad because his dad left him again.  I hugged him and he held on for a long time.  We talked about how hard it is to say goodbye and to miss someone you love.  And then we played tractors for the rest of the night.  This morning when I dropped him off at school he hugged me and held on for a long time.  Working full time and then not seeing him every other weekend is harder on us than I ever could have imagined.

It's February.  The hardest month of the year for me, when I can't stand the darkness anymore.  When I long for sunshine and warmth.  Even though most of the time I want time to slow down - I want more time to get shit done, I want more time to spend with my son - let's hope this month flies by and we will all be okay.